Seriously are you really this insecure? I'm going to be straight up and spell this out for you. Grow up and get over yourself. If you are seriously this insecure and paranoid, I might have to make some phone calls. We don't need soldiers who appear to be unstable carrying weapons.
So put on your big boy pants and act like an adult. Nobody on this site is out to get you. But you are sure presenting a lot of good reasons why we should be concerned about you, especially if you carry weapons.